Saturday, January 24, 2009

have you ever had those kind of soulmate feeling moments? its like having this fantastic chemistry and rapport with another person, male, female or otherwise. over the past few years, i've been mulling over what, how and who qualifies, that i stupidly nearly missed one right in front of my eyes.
i think he knows it. and maybe i've let him lord over me about it. but admittedly, i loved him wholeheartedly enough to know that if anything happen, i would drop everything at the drop of the hat and follow him.
at least at the climax of our friendship. yes, friendship. weirdly enough, love did blind me but not in the sense that most people would expect. for people like kat, andria, rest assured when the time comes, i'd be there but for people like him, as well as one or two others, its much different.
i get all breathless at times over it. my heart seems to constrict over the thought of losing them. and i'm impatiently waiting for them to reply. i know its reciprocated but yet, the behaviour.. its unbelievable. i sound like either a hopelessly in love admirer or a spurned ex-wife. but i'm neither. so what is this really? i think i'm really in for a long wait on this answer.

what we could have been, 2:43 am.